Lacking Wisdom

James 1:5 (CEV) states, "If any of you need wisdom, you should ask God, and it will be given to you. God is generous and won't correct you for asking."

After a few years of running from God, I have realized that I lack the wisdom to make my own decisions about my future plans. God has a plan for my life and no matter how fast I run, I can't run from God. I am currently participating in a fast in order that I may open myself fully to God's plan, as well as hoping God will begin to reveal exactly what his plan for my life will be. However, "unknown" is a pretty scary word in relating to someone's life plan. Especially a college senior who is graduating in less than four months.

It is my desire to open myself fully to God so that the unknown can be removed. The world makes many things seem glamorous, sometimes so glamorous that we are blinded by the fact that it has Satan all over it. It is very hard to resist these temptations, especially the really glamorous ones. Matthew 6:33 (CEV) states, "But more than anything else, put God's work first and do what he wants. Then the other things will be yours as well." I feel like a five-thousand piece puzzle that lacks the very last piece. But, in my heart, I know that God will complete His puzzle when the time is right.

As of now, I am open, ready, and willing to tackle whatever task the completed puzzle will reveal. I am not perfect by any means, your prayers mean a lot.